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Feel It.

 

I’m trying to hold onto this love

Hoping you’ll take me back but no

You’re so beautiful, you’re so beautiful when you break

Screaming at walls with no ears

Torturing haters with no fears

It’s how we’re all connected

It’s how we’re all infected

 

Can you feel the rage

You know you’re not alone

Can you feel the rage

You know you’re not alone

 

The time has come to realize that you’re not alone in here

We’re all a lie to slow it down and increase your fear

Now we’ve seen the light can we truly live

Now we’ve seen the light can we truly live

Taste my guilt.

 

You know I can’t hold on to this feeling of needing you

My love for you feels wrong

Tonight with you just feels so right

 

As soon as they’re all gone

I’ll make it up to you

A million reasons to go on

Then why you afraid to live

 

And if you’re there then there’s nowhere I can hide away from you

Then taste my guilt and poison all your doubts you had of me

And learn how to die with me

 

They’re all you know, they own your soul

It’s not alright, it’s not acceptable

It’s who you are, the person you hate to be

It’s only you that meant so much to me

 

You know I can’t hold on to this feeling of needing you

My love for you feels wrong

Tonight with you just feels so right

 

And learn how to die with me, tonight with you just feels so right

And learn how to die with me, tonight with you just feels so right

Broken.

 

I day dream of you and the times we spent together

I’m so in love with you but we know it can’t last forever

 

I know it’s you that’s pushing me down

I wondering when you gonna let me out

 

It’s a shame that you feel the same in a world that’s not made for you.

And I try, try, try but it’s you that keeps pulling me down.

 

I’d change all the things I see

I’d change all the things I feel

I’d change all the things I see

I’d change all the things I feel

 

And when you’re feeling down.

You know you shouldn’t feel right.

And when you’re feeling down.

You know you shouldn’t feel right.

Forgive me.

 

Can I tighten your noose, can I let you out tonight… for you

Does she have a heart worth taking

Does he have a face worth breaking

 

There’ll be times when I love you

A hundred times you’ll hate me more

So please forgive me

There’ll be times I’ll break you down

A time will come when you’ll kill me

So please forgive me

 

This time you’ll know it’s true

You can’t deny the truth, no you can’t deny this life

Regret it while you’re half way down

Regret while you’re bleeding out

Regret it one last time

Gun.

 

Take this rope and hang yourself, it’s not a choice you have.

Take this water and drown yourself

You’ll float on high underground

 

And so far you’ve come to stay alive

You say you know me but you don’t know yourself

So you can breathe again, so you can breathe again

 

Even though your shadow knows you well

You’ll do it all for fame and glory

You know you should have been so right

Instead you chose to loose

 

You do it to yourself. Now you’ve gone too far and I can’t follow you

You do it to yourself. Now you’ve gone too far

 

So you can breathe again… you do it to yourself

So you can breathe again… you do it to yourself

So you can breathe again… you do it to yourself

Lust.

 

You’ll break your neck to feel a thrill

And shove it all in this pill so it feels real

Nobody else will ever know just what you are

Until you break, and so your heart she’ll steal.

 

I don’t get a lot of hope trusting you

Should of let you go instead of me

Maybe it’s too late to be apart of you

Cause I lust you

 

I know it’s hard to feel alive when you’re already dead

 

This hate feels like love

This hate feels like love

This hate feels like love

This hate feels like love

One up.

 

It’s good to know she’s gone again

Hope this night will never end

Sometimes you feel like the end is better

Sometimes you like to watch me drown

 

I’ve walked this road

I can’t take this no more

I’ve fallen down and lost my way before

Before you go, before you go

 

It’s good to feel this right again

It’s nice to know you way back then

Sometimes you’re right, sometimes you’re wrong

This time it feels like we’ll get along

Don’t wanna ever feel like this…. again

I never wanna feel like this again

I never wanna feel like this again

Just for you.

 

I’m chained to the floor and I feel a little down

There’s a knock and I hope it’s you

Everybody else is looking down and I wrote this song just for you

This hell that you’re living in breathes from the love you give

And I hope you shine… yeah, I hope you shine

 

You’re right and you know it, I hope you shine

You’re right and you know it, I hope you shine

You’re right and you know it, I hope you shine

You’re right and you know it, I hope you shine

 

Somethings in life you can’t deny

Sometimes in life you have to lie

Everybody you know is going to die, going to die

 

Somethings in life you can’t deny

Sometimes in life you have to lie

Everybody you know is going to die, going to die

Something’s in life you can’t deny

Sometimes in life you have to lie

Everybody you know is going to die, going to die

 

So shine for me, common won’t you shine for me

Without you.

 

If feeling is all you’re trained to do

Then what is life without you

If dreaming is all I do of you

Then why this life I’ll give to you

 

You belong with me

Why you hiding lately

All this time you lead me on and on

Even though you saved me

Now you’re gonna leave me

I’ll keep coming at you on and on

 

If feeling is all you’re trained to do

Then what is life without you

If dreaming is all I do of you

Then why this life I’ll give to you

WTF.

 

You should have been around

To know what it feels like to hate you

 

As days pass on by we all age

Won’t feel the same as you can’t grow older

 

You know I feel the shame

You know I feel the same

 

Before i sell this life just to feel the same

I would of bowed again just to feel the shame

 

I’ll take it day by day

Someday I’ll feel alright

There’s no more words to say

Just as long as you forgive me

 

Before i sell this life just to feel the same

I would of bowed again just to feel the shame

I’ll take it day by day, Someday I’ll feel alright

There’s no more words to say, Just as long as you forgive me

As long as you forgive me, As long as you forgive me

 

You know I feel the shame, you know I feel the same

You know I feel the shame, You know I feel the same

Waste it.

 

I feel like I know you from somewhere

I know you hate it but they have to stare

I hope you’re alright cause they don’t care

This time it’s over so go and take your share

 

I’ve made it out and I’ve fallen down

I’m shakin off your shit

When I’m feeling low I should have known

You’ll only drag me down

 

Open up or run and hide

Hope this bottle makes you feel alright

To waste it all is such a shame

This time it’s over, you’ll never feel the same 

Asymbolia.

 

You dream about your fantasies. you're sleeping with your enemies.

It's all because you love yourself.

You're betting on your loneliness while wishing for an end to this

so why don't you kill yourself.

 

When the world stops burning

when the ground stops shaking

when the world stops turning and killing and hating

how will you really  know. 

 

Everytime you look at me i know you feel the urgenct

to rid yourself of me.

but without me you'll be nothing less than tears in the ocean.

i hope you do your best.

Alright.

 

Words of love that fail. Turning dust to gold.

All these precious lives that you hold.

You're hiding from the truth, you're bleeding sympathy.

You suffocate while breeding anarchy.

 

When i breath you in, when i taste your skin.

nothing makes me more insane.

can i please come in and see whats underneath.

you're safe until you fall asleep.

 

i know it's wrong,  just lie there... it won't be long, just lie there...

it's in this song, just lie there... creeping within.

You.

 

Looks like you need a friend, you'll have to grow up on your own.

I thought you'd be there till the end, instead you went off on your own

so much tears and so much hate to live

 

it's who you are, it's the fire that shapes you

it's who you are, it's the hate that breaks you

 

So you never made it in the end, why don't you give yourself another chance

here's to your dreams, here's all your hopes. Here's all your whole life in my hand

it's all in the sand. so much tears, oh so much hate to feel.

 

It's you, it's you, its' you, it's you that walked away when i gave it all to you.

 

Summer of Sinners.

 

You know i'll never change, change the way i feel about you.

The only time you beg, you beg, you beg me to stop.

 

It's still raining but it's okay.

This will be the summer of sinners.

it's all perfect as long as you stay

This will be the summer of sinners.

 

We're not gonna run and hide, tonight we'd rather shoot than run

blame me for all your hate, just know that i'll be waiting for you

t's still raining but it's okay.

This will be the summer of sinners.

it's all perfect as long as you stay, please stay.

Face the fear.

 

Been waiting all this time for you to arrive.

With skin like paper, your soul is burning up inside.

i'll hold on to your last words, drown me in your hate.

you made it look so easy.

 

i don't have all the answers, i just know the escape

all i have for now is you, is you, is you. you 're my mistake.

 

This time you''ll never lie, never sleep, or feel alive

no looking at the stars at night, no telling me that you feel alright.

no giving but still you're taking, no cold, no hate, no old.

No waiting, no life for you, no pride left to steal.

 

 

 

 

Lose control.

 

Feels like the day whe i met you. been waiting a long time fo you.

Times like these i'll know you. these changes you'll try undo.

 

I've shed the tears of a thousand eyes.

i believed the words of your beautiful lies.

All these broken dreams buried in this hole

i'll make this right till i lose control.

 

They'll sell you hope and make you pay with hate.

and med you up till you feel alright.

Feels like the day when i lost you

i don't wanna feel no more.

 

Someday i'll make this right

Reset.

 

Here's to you, here's to me again and everybody else

it's good to know you'll never know again how everybody feels

 

And i can't say it how it is

and all these memories are just too hard to keep

 

Here's to life, here's to being you and everybody else

i hope you're right, i hope you've found your way, and everybody else.

 

The giver.

 

Everything's gonna be alright, true words of the giver.

Ignore the pain, doesn't make it right, it won't go away.

 

Where ever this day leads to

i won't believe that it's true

everytime i miss you

and everytime i missed you

 

Days ahead, who can we trust and forget who matters.

All it takes is a little rust to breed all the haters.

Don't make me feel this way and build this hate machine.

Stop making these excuses, just stop it and make it right.

 

 

 

Drown.

 

You want all you can't have and hate what you've got.

You're loving this feeling that so fake.

Al that you want just keep turrning it's back.

You can't have it all so you watch it break.

 

All the pretty girls are full of shit

 

You're making me feel like i am nothing at all.

This suffering is all for something beautiful.

You have the all the choices but you fear what you take.

When the monster you've made is now the monster you hate.

 

 

 

The Old Man.

 

Everybody's talking bout the old man who makes toys.

Everybody's talking bout the old man and his life he enjoys.

 

A couple years back we were just a bunch of kids with no care at all.

Playing on the corner of house where an old man lived all alone.

His wife passed away along time ago and nobody knows why.

Now he just sits at home making toys for all the little boys.

 

Everybody's talking bout the old man who makes toys.

Everybody's talking bout the old man who likes boys

 

A couple days later little Johnny disappeared with no trace at all.

He was last seen playing by the old mans house all alone

suppose we'll never know how it all really ended or makes sense at all.

Just as long as time is relevant, this life will never be...

 

I am you.

 

Everyone i hate i see in my reflection

There's no escaping what i am

Everyday it gets harder to exist without you

I can't see you but i know you're there,

and i can't see you but i know you're there

I'm not gonna see this through

i'd rather run away

Don't tell me how i must feel

And i still miss you, another day i'm all alone without you

I can't see you but i know you're there,

and i can't see you but i know you're there

The End.

How did  we get here, how did we get this far.

The darkness we fear is what makes us who we are

Lets be something for now and nothing forever

How will we make it, how bout we fake it through this life

let's hope we make it, let's hope we make it through this life

and everyday could be the end

we'll break if we don't bend

how will you know when your life is over

how will you know that it's the end

How will we make it, how bout we fake it through this life

let's hope we make it, let's hope we make it through this life

I crave you.

it's a feeling i can't explain. it's a feeling that keeps me alive.

this feeling takes away all my pain, this feeling i need to survive.

I crave you so much crave you so much, crave you so much.

I crave you so much crave you so much, crave you so much.

 

You make me feel invincible, without you i'm in invisible.

I know you want me or fake it for now, i can't get your face out of my head

I crave you so much crave you so much, crave you so much.

I crave you so much crave you so much, crave you so much.

I know you.

Show me your feelings that you've hidden so deep.

So deep and far away that you've lost yourself.

Show me your other side the side that likes me.

The side that ignores my flaws and ignites me.

And i know you, you should still feel the same

while i go insane

no i wont lose you

and i need you

you always liked to take the blame while i felt the shame

no i wont lose you

I remember the way you use to look at me

All i got was your sympathy

I remember your eyes filled with empathy

i only wish you could see what i see
 


 

my disease.

i see how much you care and i see how hard you tried

the hope you once had has now long ago died

like sand through your hands, you can 't hold the blame

don't try and reason with the voice of shame

save you, no save me please

you gave me life, now you're my disease

save you, no save me please

you gave me life, now you're my disease

There's no one out there, that's why you feel left out

this life's just not fair, we end up in the ground

your pain and my pain, is not the same

you can't help yourself, instead you destroy yourself

inside me.

the screams in you,

you never let outside,

you never let escape from your tears

the dreams in you,

are forever trapped in your sleep by your fears

save the silence from all the screaming lies

i hear them screaming right inside me

save the silence from all the hateful minds

i see them pointing right inside me

the dreams you've lost yourself inside

a world you've made where you can hide

a world where a thousand times you've died

your obsession manifests perfection

save the silence from all the screaming lies

i hear them screaming right inside me

save the silence from all the hateful minds

i see them pointing right inside me

don't drag me down with you

don't drag me down with you

Let me out.

we're all victims of our own hate

slowly you start to suffocate

on all the truth that immolates

the love you try to recreate

it's just the same thing everyday

history stuck in repeat

once the dust has gone away

we'll see the dirt that we eat

Somethings coming down, so why am i feeling wasted

nothing ever works out right, that's why i'm so hated

feeling like i'm trash tonight, feeling like i hoped tonight

now you're talking, now you're talking, now you're talking

lets do this right

don't let me out

somethings not alright

somethings not alright with me

I don't think i'll ever get out here

i don't think this shit will disappear

here you'll stay, feels so right

don't leave me here tonight

another year gone so we'll try hang on

when you get here, i'll be gone

you're so slow

i gotta go, i gotta go, so let me go

life.

 

now what am i worth when i'm lost in your words

there's nothing you can do but share your pain with me

the cracks in reality that we fall through

this moment it's brought us to

now share your pain with me

you and me, we're both the same

we both feel the light shining through the wall

you and me, we're not the same

we don't always break when we fall

now tell me

why it's so hard to live but easy to die

now tell me

why it's so hard to live but easy to die

All these broken lives we can fix

instead we're blind and feeding the lies

it's all the same to me

breaking hearts while growing souls

blood flowing through gaping holes

it's all the same to me

my mistake.

 

you make it hard for me to feel

and all i wanna do is fix you

you fake it so good it looks real

i want you, a new you, i'll fix you

my mistake, there's something bout you that i don't like

my mistake, there's something bout you that's just not right

and i like fake, it makes me feel like i'm fitting in

and you're so real to me, you feel so, feel so unreal

my mistake, there's something bout you that i don't like

my mistake, there's something bout you that's just not right

devour this perfect day

and never feel ashamed

it's all you'll dream about

it's all you'll dream about